A post dedicated to my mum.
My mother who single-handedly raise me and my three other siblings.
I'm always the one making her worried and the one whom she most adore.
Wherever she goes, be it overseas trip with my aunts or occasional dinners, she'll definitely include me without fail.
Because my parents divorced when i was young, my mum played her part as two roles. That explains her overprotection and unconditional love for me.
Whatever I want, she'll try to get it and she always place her children before her.
In the past, Im rebellious, defiant and stubborn, always thinking for myself first.
Whenever my mum wants to fetch me home, I'll give her a whole lot of reasons and let her wait till I meet her. I was selfish.
I remember the day when Im suppose to meet her at the Bishan mrt circle line platform, I purposely let her wait alone for 30 mins plus because of friend till I appear and she scolded me for making her wait so long. Not only that, I remembered she was freezing cold and I really do feel guilty about it but yet, not doing anything about it.
When I found out I was pregnant early this year, I didnt dare to tell her.
Im not afraid she'll scold but afraid of disappointing her because I've disappoint her many times
How she found out was a letter from KK hospital was sent to my house and she read it...
When I knew she found out, she was disappointed but worried for me too because I wasn't taking in any nutritious food
When I got married and moved out of the house, I then finally realise the importance of my mum in my life. She was a great mum. Always asking whether I need/want anything or if my life was good. Whenever I had difficulties, she'll help. Like whenever I have cramps during pregnancy, I'll ask her and she wont base on her own knowledge and tell me (because it might be just an assumption, not facts), instead, she'll search in the internet and tell me.
Whenever Im out with her, she'll pamper me by bringing me to places which I wanna go instead of hawker centres or foodcourt and try to fork out with her own savings, just to let me be happy.
Most importantly was, she never fails to turn up and accompany me for my gynae checkups.
She'll try her best to make time for me
However, I cant go back to the past like how it was, everyday being able to see my mum...
I do regret not spending enough time with her in the past. Now, Im trying to spend more time with her whenever I can
My mum always tells me this since young till now "who scold you, you tell me, I'll scold him/her back". Which tells me that she really protects me :)
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