I've decided to write them all out here, in this open blog, whats a blog for when you don't use it to write down what you want, right?
Okay, I admit, I've been unhappy these few days. Many things happened lately and they are all hidden within myself. I just wanna write it down because I found out that, I can't keep it any longer. So, just keep the comments to yourself :)

I like you, yes i do and I don't like to hide it. I would rather let you know it because I hate hiding these kind of stuffs. And yes, this has been going on for a few months already and yupp, you know it. You can choose to ignore it, but you didn't. In fact, this whole r/s became complicated recently. Contacting you via phone and sms is totally different from meeting you via face to face. This tends to become weird for me and mostly, smses and meeting up just doesn't seem to link at all. Because of this, I just feel so weird and insecure. Next week, you'll be working two jobs for the whole fucking one month plus, which means I could hardly meet you and do you think I could call and msg you anytime? I can't because I know you will be very tired and you won't like it either. What can I do? Nothing, everything will be back to square one, like last time. I also doubt you would wanna meet me during weekends right? Im sure you'll give lots of reasons. So I'm currently trying to get the same job as you but I doubt I could due to the Robinsons one. Ever since USS, I've been contacting you already and it has became a habit, Im trying to get rid of this habit because I know, this contact thingy wont last long. You can dua me anytime when we're suppose to go out etc, you can lie to me saying that you'll be busy etc, you can do whatever you want, I wont know anything but just have to play along and cancel the outing. Even if its just a simple msg of 'What are you doing??' from you, I won't get sick of it. You may say I'm thinking too much but have you thought of your actions? Everything that I was looking forward to and hoping for it, seems to crash up with disappointments.
& I was hoping you could see this but I doubt you would

I SHALL END THIS WHOLE SHIT ONCE AND FOR ALL

P.S. Don't ask me to cheer up etc because the only person who could cheer you up is the one who caused this but I know I will be fine.